Saturday, November 9, 2013

أنا أرضُكَ.. أُمّكَ، يَا ولدي




أنا أرْضُكَ.. أُمّكَ، يَا ولدي


هلّا رافقتني في رحلةٍ إلى الماضي المجيدْ
شرفٌ وسلامٌ، وكرامةٌ .. تُدثِّر ملامحَ تاريخي العريقْ

تلك الصفات تمرّدتْ، وتغيّرتْ، وتبعثرتْ، يا ولدي
تشوّهتْ، يا ولدي
وكأنما الحّريةَ شبحٌ لحمامةٍ بيضاءَ.. كانت قبل مِائة عامٍ، يا ولدي

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العقلُ شريدٌ ما بينَ صُحبةٍ ذبُلَت مع السنونِ، وخَبَتْ نجومها..
وأحبّةٍ تركوا الديارَ.. ظلمْنَهُنّ بتركِهنَّ مرارا
ووطنٍ ممزقٍ، يتلوّى من عبثِ الشياطينِ إنشطارا
عجبي لتاريخي الحفيٍّ ببطولاتٍ نوبيةٍ وافريقيّةٍ وعربيّة
أ يتمخّض في إثرهِ مستقبلٌ مظلمٌ هكذا ومقيت؟!

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أنا مهدٌ لحضارةٍ ألهمت ألفاً من الحضاراتْ
أنا التي سُقيتْ دماً شريفاً طاهراً .. واجترَعَتْ دواهي الزمان مُرغمةً .. فقمتُ بأعظم التضحياتْ..
أنا باهتٌ لوني حداداًعلى صحبي
يتشبثون بإصبعين في أعلى سنديانة، كانت في أصلها خضراء
أيُّ ربيعٍ ذاك الذي يَحرق الجذور مدمراً جذعها فالأوراق؟
أنا مرهقةٌ..
ووحيدةٌ..
ومنبوذةٌ، طُبعَ على جبينها ملعونةٌ حمقاء!
فقري مذلّةٌ لأبنائي.. والذُّلُّ جالِبُهُ هوَ الأبناءْ
أوَ إنْ سرقوني.. كيف لأمٍ في أخذِ قِصاصها أنْ تَدعو بلعنةِ السَّماء؟
أنا العزيزة إن ذكرْتَني شرفاً..
وأنا الغنيّة إن أحببتني حقاً..
أتحبُّني؟
اسنِدني وسِاندني
أنا أمكَ ..
أحتاجُكَ يا ولدي قطعاً!

Sunday, October 20, 2013

لكِ، مع حبي:سعادة أم شقاء؟

لَكِ،


عينانِ ناعستانِ قدْ تيّمتا قلبي .. يسعدنهُ أم له فيهن حظُّ شقاء؟

وجهٌ كقُرصِ الشمس في خيلائهِ .. قَسَماتهُ  الحُسنَ قد أبدينهُ بغير عناء

عُنّابُ ثغرِهِ لغزٌ افريقي عبقريّ .. في حَلّهِ ثِقةٌ، لا فاحشٌ لا مُنكرٌ فاه

مترَنِّحُ القدِّ، بانٌ بائنُ فَرعُه .. يسلُبُ من كُلِّ ذا لبٍ لُبّهُ ، بسلاسة لا إكراه

في طبعِهِ صفةٌ من كوكبٍ دُريّ مُبجّلٍ .. ذا رونقٍ، سبحان من سَوّاه

الحِلْمُ شيمتهُ التي يرنو بها متأملاً .. في شأنِهِ يعلو كما الأفلاك

أدبٌ وعِفّة عذريةُ ودلالٌ .. يسعدنهُ أم له فيهن حظُّ شقاء؟


مع حُبّي.

Thursday, August 1, 2013

لَكِ، مع حبي: ردّ

لَكِ،

عزيزتي، لم أعلمْ ..
تتحدثين قليلاً، وأتحدث قليلاً
ثم أُحجِمُ وتغضبينْ
وتثورين

أليس هذا ما تقصدين؟

ظننت أنك تقرئينَ أفكاري ..
تصنعين الطريقَ وتقودينَ الرّكبْ..
تصبُرين صبريْن، عَنّي وعنكِ..

عن أيّ ثمانيةِ أشهرٍ تتحدثين؟ بل ثمانية سنين ..ثمانية قرون .. ثمانية مما لا نَحسِبُ ولا يحسبونْ

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أرى المستقبل وأراكِ..
وكثيراً ما أدعو ربي، في إسمك عَدَمي و بقائي
فأنا رملاء أتبعثرُ، ويديك تُلَملِم أجزائي
ابنيني قصراً من وَلَهٍ.. أو انثري أهوائي في هواء
أطمع في كُلِّكِ أو لا شيء ..

 اهدميني أو اصنعيني
أكسيني شغفاً وأرعيني..
 أو دعيني

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كبريائُك وغروري توأمانْ..
يكونانِ لبعضِهِما أو لا يكونانْ..
يرسُمانِ حدوداً لنا
فلو تُركتِ الأقدار لِأيدينا، لدثرنا المعقول ولمحينا ملامح الزمانْ..
ولعلّمتُكِ أسراراً في الحُبّ لم تكشف قطْ..
ولجعلت الحاضر لك كل شيء..
وبسّطت قوانين اللهو بلا عبث..
وفسرت مخطوطات الهوى بغير ترجمانْ
ولكن..
لا معنى من سرقة لحظاتٍ لسنا نَقدرُ عليها
سنعيشها قصة، وسنكتبها لاحقاً
وسيكون الصبر هو العنوانْ..

معَ َ حُبّي.

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

لَكَ، مع حُبّي.

لَكَ،

شهرٌ..
شهرانِ..
فثمانية أشهُر.
ثمانيةُ أشهرٍ مرّت ولم تَشعرُ.
كيفَ لكَ أنْ تحسَّ وأنتَ غارقٌ في عالمِكَ الذُّكوريّ؟
عالمٌ يحمِلُ في طيّاتهِ مسرحيةً هزليةً بطلاها أنت وغرورك..
عالم قوانينه تخدمُ غروركَ لتَجرح كبريائي
عالم يبني مجدكَ ويهدم عليائي
يجردني من أبسط حقوقي، دعْ عنك خيلائي!

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يا سيّدي، رفقاً
فأنا أنثي .. تذكّر!
قبل أن تَقْسُ عليّ.. تذكّر
قبل أنا ترفعني لتحطمني.. تذكّر
لا عهَد بيْننا إلا تلاؤمُ أرواحِنا .. تذكّر، ولا تُنِكر

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يا سيدي، رفقاً
وسِرْ بجانبي.. لا تقرّبنِ ولا تدفَعنِ
أنا وأنتَ، والصَّبرُ ثالثنا.. تارةً يضيقُ بكَ وتارةً يُمزّقُني

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يا سيّدي، رفقاً
فأنا مُذ أُدخلت لِعالمك وأنا في البحث عنِ المَخرَج
أرشِدني للمستَقبلِ، أو أرجعني للماضي.. عَلِّي لحياتك لمْ أُخلقْ

كلماتي كاذبة!

ما كانت  أيّامي من غيرِكَ يا أحمقُ أعمقْ ..
تحلو بحديثك أيّامي، وكأنَّ وجودكَ هو الفرقْ

     مع حبي.

يُتبع...

Sunday, June 30, 2013

Ramadan: The Hunger Games?!



So, "Ramadan" was the most requested topic for the past 3 weeks





To you,
            Looking at the holy month of Ramadan as burden, and fasting as not eating or drinking all day is ignorance itself.

Some of us sleep all day long; I don't even know how it's considered fasting!

Some spend their whole day cursing then follow it with "اللهم اني صائم".
Homie, you didn't just "تجرح صيامك", you murdered it!

Some spend the whole day gossiping, then go back home for "Iftar".
Sweetie, you spent your whole day eating the flesh of people; you might as well eat and drink.

For some, Ramadan is the season for being completely insane about the new "Egyptian series".

Others take off after "Iftar" for "sheesha" and card games, and then soccer matches till early mornings.

And lastly, the ones who know prayer times only in this month. (mostly just Fajr and Maghrib)

Do you see what's wrong with that picture?

If you're not willing to commit your whole month to Allah, at least dedicate few hours to please him. So it won't be like what my mama says: "Hunger and thirst for no benefit".


COMMITER IN RAMADAN, AND "WHATEVER" AFTER RAMADAN

I know that for some, Ramadan presents the perfect environment to start something beautiful. 

But people seem to let go of whatever they thought was the best, after "the spell breaks" if I may say.
We might not achieve it this Ramadan, or the next, or the next, but trying and being genuine about trying is what matters.

 It would be more beautiful if we strive to turn it into a "whole year" thing. Don't you think?


Other topic is "THE COMPLAINERS":

They're those drama queens who keep complaining during the whole month, everyday, all day long!

Don't you think we're all tired?

By complaining, you're depriving yourself from the pleasure of dedicating your determination and genuine struggle to your creator.

And frankly annoying everyone around you!

Y'all, Ramadan is supposed to be a spiritual month. Complaining won't make your throat less drier.



THIS RAMADAN

Put in mind that this is your chance for a fresh start, or even for completing what you had once started.

Pledge to try something new, and commit to it. Even if you think it's small.

It might be reading a portion of Quran everyday and fully understanding it.

It might be committing to "taraweeh".

It might be taking a break from all those people who keep bringing you down with their bad attitudes.

Why not get close to your family.

Whatever serves you as a human!

Baby steps.

Set your goals, and keep marching on! :)

I'm not qualified to tell you exactly what to do to come out as a winner, I believe everyone here is old enough to differentiate right from wrong. 

                                                                                                 With Love.





Monday, June 10, 2013

Purpose of creation: Ibada &Finding Balance.



"A life with no purpose is not a life, for it is undirected." –Unknown


To you,
     
           Purpose of Our Creation:



                                                                   Adh-Dhariyat, 56

"And I did not create the jinn and mankind except to worship Me."




What is Ibada?

"Ibada" is a noun from the Arabic root "عَبَدَ", directly translates to "worship: (v)". And "عَبْد- Abd" is a related word that translates to "Slave: (n)".

In Arabic language, the noun "Abd" is used to describe a person who shows utter obedience and submission. (Usually related to a "God" or a master)

Islam prohibited slavery and any sort of worshiping-related obedience that is dedicated to idols " "أصَنَامْ or masters.

Islam states that: "Allah is the only God. Therefore, he's the only one worth worshiping".

 The Beauty of Ibada:

When a Muslim's intention is directed to serve and worship Allah (which is a condition of Ibada), wonders are done. For example, salah (prayer) prevents vice, and zakāt (alms) purifies one's soul.




                                                                       Al-`Ankabut, 45

"Recite, [O Muhammad], what has been revealed to you of the Book and establish prayer. Indeed, prayer prohibits immorality and wrongdoing, and the remembrance of Allah is greater. And Allah knows that which you do."


                                                                       

                                                                      At-Tawbah, 103


"Take, [O, Muhammad], from their wealth a charity by which you purify them and cause them increase, and invoke [ Allah 's blessings] upon them. Indeed, your invocations are reassurance for them. And Allah is Hearing and Knowing."


On contrary what what some people think, the five pillars of Islam do not resemble the whole continuous process of worshiping Allah.

Ibn Taymiyyah says in (Al-Uboodiyyah- Subjection to God):



Balance?

Islam taught us that you don't have to adopt the monasticism theory to be religious. The key is to find that balance between your  dunya and long-lasting akhira. And that's by remembrance of Allah, and dedicating your physical and psychological energies towards worshiping him. That is known as "Ihsan".

We All know the five pillars of Islam



And we know the six articles of faith





According to Omar, radiyallahu anhu:




Ihsan is what completes the whole package. It's what leads to that balance, where you don't lose dunya or akhira.

"Ihsan" comes from the Arabic root "حَسُنَ" and "حَسَّنَ" which means "perfect: (v)". So Ihsan means the perfection of your "Iman" and your "Ibada".


But Omnia, didn't you say that there's no such thing as a "perfect muslim"?

True, However a Muslim should always want to top their own good deeds.


If you feel like your prayer is lacking something and you want to improve it, that's Ihsan.

If you want to to apply for a better job so you can support your family and yourself, that's Ihsan.

If you want to get married to preserve your virtue, that's Ihsan.

If you want to build your community and uplift your country, that's Ihsan.

If you want to embrace hijab and struggling, that's Ihsan.




You see, Deen and dunya are not the opposite of each other. Deen is literally connected to dunya, not akhira. Allah created deen to discipline us in dunya, so we could enjoy it with the limits of halal.


How to create that balance?

Commitment is never easy, but remember: Hardworking combined with intention is what matters to Allah, and that's how you're "evaluated" on judgement day.

- Keep reminding yourself that you want all your actions to be directed towards pleasing and worshiping Allah.

- Environment does matter, so surround yourself with items or/and people that remind you of Allah.

- Lastly, have faith in this hadith qudsi:


                                                         


                                                                                                  With Love.


P.s: - I'm sorry the post is kind of long

       - Past few posts that I "chose" got some positive reviews, Alhamdulillah.
Now I need you guys to choose my next topic. contact me on my Twitter or my Facebook, or if you're not shy comment below. :)

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Is that a hijab, or just a head scarf?

To you,

            As a young muslim woman, I struggle a lot to balance my dunya deeds and my akhira deeds. One of those struggles is my "hijab". So I decided to share few of my thoughts with you people.

Let me introduce you to the concept itself. "Hijab" is from the arabic root "َحَجَب", which literally translates to: "to cover". and "hijab" means a cover. But you already know that, don't you? The real questions are, why? and how?

When Islam first came, more than 1400 years ago, the arab land was in chaos. Meaning, Adultery was a normal act. Women showed their flesh as a normal act. Gambling and superstitions ruled the land. As a result, immorality and "law of the jungle" were the dominant. Thats why it's called "jahiliyah", which is from the arabic root "َجَهَل", and means "ignorance". They were like animals or even worse, and islam came to uplift them, educate them, and liberate them.
I know, I know, this isn't supposed to be a history lesson, but to understand the concept, you're ought to understand the source.

So, when Islam taught them how to be civilized, it taught them not to steal, not to cheat, not to kill oneself nor one another, not to drink alcohol, not to commit adultery. It also taught them to cover up (both men and women), as a sign of modesty, which leads to escaping temporal dunya to long lasting akhira.

Basically, both men and women are obligated to wear hijab in Islam, and act upon it. They may differ in outer appearance, but they're morally identical.

Moving on to "Women's hijab" as not to make it long for you guys:
I'm not going to talk about the conditions of a hijab here, because it's a long subject with many points and sub-subjects. However, I'm going to talk about the soul of hijab.

So sister, you CHOSE to wear hijab, right? And you wear it to please Allah, right?

Here's the thing, I believe that the "scarf" is a complementary to the whole concept of hijab.
How? Well, if you make a mud pie, and cover it with yummy frosting, it would still be a mud pie, correct?
So as you see, it's not about matching the color of your scarf with the blouse you're wearing. It's about matching your outer appearance with what you have inside.

Hijab is about lowering your gaze.
Hijab is about NOT backbiting and swearing, because you're too busy upgrading your own life.
Hijab is about that bitter-sweet struggle you go through to understand Islam. 
It's about you doing things because you absolutely and ultimately love Allah, not just because you fear him.
It's about putting all your knowledge of Islam into actions, so people would see the truth of islam.
Hijab's ultimate reason is to show you're an independent, successful, well balanced "muslim" woman.
YOU represent Islam, so send the right message, or at least try!

What I'm trying to say is, you might have a girl whose hijab lacks nothing but the "head scarf". And you have another girl whose hijab has nothing but the "head scarf".

                                                                                       With Love.

P.s: please share your thoughts and comments, whether here, facebook, or twitter.

This post is dedicated to a dear friend. I hope you like it. :)
  

Thursday, May 23, 2013

نحنُ قومٌ

To you,

نحنُ قومٌ إذا قلنا لم نفعل، و إن فعلنا لم نصمت..
نحنُ قومٌ نعلن الحرب على كل عاصٍ و تلك المعاصي نخفيها إذا كنا من ارتكبها..
نحنُ قومٌ نقاوم التغيير، ونقضي ساعات فراغنا سباً ولعناً لأننا لا نتغير.. ولن نتغير!
نحنُ قومٌ نريد حضارةً، ونهدم خمسين ألفاً قبل أن نبني حائطا من طين..
نحنُ قومٌ خلقنا عالماً من التحضر الوهمي لكي لا نواجه الواقع الحتمي..
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نحنُ قومٌ ثقافتنا في رفض مناهج غيرنا، وفرض قوانيننا الرجعية
نحنُ قومٌ قوتنا في كسرنا كل من لا يتبنى أفكارنا العقيمة
نحنُ قومٌ علمُنا في جهلِ غيرِنا
نحنُ قومٌ نبني قصورنا على حُطامِ مجدِ من سبقونا، ولا مجدَ لنا.
..
نحنُ إذا قدرنا، بطشنا.
وإذا علمنا، كتمنا.
..
نحنُ قومٌ بفظاظتنا ننفِّر..
وبجهلنا المُتنكِّر ننفِّر..
وبكل أسلوبٍ عقيمٍ لدينا ننفِّر..
وبمكرنا وسذاجة غيرنا نحطِّم وندمِّر..
..
نحنُ جبابرةٌ ونسمِّيها شجاعة..
نحنُ نصنعُ اللُّعبةَ ونسنُّ قوانينها، ثم نكسِّرُ ونُحطِّم كل القوانين..
نحنُ نزرعُ الخوف في قلب من يطيعُنا قبل أن نطعمَهُ من لا يطيعنا..
نحنُ و إن نَبدُ مجتمعينَ، قلوبُنا شَتَّى..
..
نحنُ قومٌ نريدُ الإصلاح لكل الأسباب الخاطئة، ونبررها..
نحنُ قومٌ تبطش يمينُنَا بيسارِنا من شدَّة الخوفْ..
..
نحن في كل مكان، وما لزمان قدرة بأن ينهي فترة حكمنا..
فنحن نتغلغلْ، نتعمَّقْ، وجذور وجودنا لا تنتهي.. لا تُقْتَلَع.. 
..
أنتَ من يعطينا القوة..
اصمتْ! فصمتك يمدُّنا بما لا تَمدُّنا به الأسلحة..
واهربْ.. اركضْ، ولا تنظر للخلف.. 
فَرُبَّ نصيحةٍ من شيطانَ تنجيك
..
من نحن؟
نحنُ قومٌ نزعَمُ أنَّ الجَنَّة ملك لنا، ولكن هيْهاتَ أنْ تَدخُلَ الجَنَّةَ الشَّياطينُ .


                                                                 With Love.

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

College girls in Sudan: Stereotypes

To You,

             Those are the first ten stereotypes that popped into my head:
First type is the GOSSIP GIRL, whose only job in college is to transfer sh'marat (gossip) from one person to the other. Everyone pretends to hate her but secretly feed on the gossip she brings.

Then you have the HANKOSHA (supposedly feminine), whose every sentence start with "OH EMM GEEH!!". This type eats a pizza with a knife, and her default value is the disgusted face, like she's suffering from severe constipation.

3AROOB or (country girl) is the funniest. She's from the outskirts of Khartoum or a far village. Don't mix her simplicity with stupidity. Everything about her makes you burst into a retarded laugh, specially the way she talks.


The PLAYER is the most obvious one. She'd dated almost everyone, or is dating everyone. She's got her ways to make you buy her credit so she could spend it talking to other guys.
P.s: this type is usually heartless.

The LOUD CHICK on the other hand is always so... loud! The way she talks is obnoxious. Her laugh is annoying. Her sense of decency is nonexistent.
Caution: this creature has the ability to cause anger management problems, followed by an urge to smack the potatoes out of her.

Don't forget the HOT BARLOMA (freshman). She's innocent (supposedly) and adorable, that's why guys fall for her. She's often forgotten in second year after another hot freshman is in the picture.

There's that one type that offenses the whole female nation.... ALJA3ANA! (hungry for boys). She flirts with all guys, and is willing to steal your man if you're not careful. She would assume that a guy likes her simply because he smiled at her or something.

YA 3AMMAK (the ghetto girl) always got your back, unless you're the enemy, then she'll just whoop that ***! She might seem tough and heartless, but she'll never betray you.

The 7ARAAM (prohibited) is never to be forgotten. To her, eveything you do is haraam. She'd pass by you and give you the death threat like you stole her unicorn or something.

Last but not least, the SAFEEHA (dirty mouth). If she was to be beeped for every dirty word she said, we'd end up with a Lil Wayne song! Usually she'd make you lol, but she'd also put you in really awkward and embarrassing situations with strangers.

                     With Love

- If you can think of other stereotypes, don't hesitate to tell me.


Tuesday, April 30, 2013

10 Reasons I love Sudan

To you,
            There are ten reasons I love my homeland Sudan,

1- The food is really good. God I'd love me some "shayyat seekh" right now.

2- You're never alone. On times of ease and hardships, your extended family will always support you and show you how much they care.

3- Weddings! Sudanese weddings can be very dramatic, but the whole process of preparing for a relative's wedding is spectacular.

4- When you need help, almost everyone offers a hand.

5- The wise grandmother (haboba), who never fails to make you feel better after a talk with her.

6- Family gatherings, when your whole family get together to eat, and gossip, and point out who's not married yet.

7- That sense of tragedy you get when you wake up to find out that it's been raining all night, so you predict how many ponds are going to be on the way you take to get to work/college/school . lol

8- Witnessing a fight on a haf'la (bus). Always so funny.

9- Those familiar strangers you see every morning when you're heading to work/college/school, but never really talked to them.

10- That feeling of greatness you get when you spend a whole day without facing the sun. (doesn't happen a lot though)
                      With Love

Monday, April 29, 2013

Mowasalat (101): General Guidelines

To you,
            Here are some guidelines in terms of taking Mowasalat in Sudan (Public Transportation)

* Haf'la (The Bus)
 You gotta be really smart when it comes to haf'la, because you have two things to bear in mind:
1) The duration of the trip from point A to point B (including the gazillion times it would stop to drop and pick up passengers), and add an estimation of the time you'd probably wait so you could find a bus with an empty chair. (specially if you're going out in the busy hours).

2) That there's an 85% chance there's going to be a fight on that bus. 50% chance it'll be you fighting with the kumsari (the collector).


*Raksha
Raksha drivers will always try to rip you off. therefore you should agree on the money before you take the raksha.
You only take a raksha if:

1) You have absolutely zero time to waste (he'll probably waste it anyway with all the "shortcuts")

2) There's no haf'la to the place you want to get

3) The sun's too hot - if you're a hankoosh (soft)


 note: 1- Rakshas are not allowed to cross bridges.
         2- It was scientifically proven that a raksha can carry up to 7 medium sized females.



*Amjad

Amjad drivers often love to talk about politics and curse the government, so never reply back to them.

It's only useful when you're crossing a bridge and you're very late.
Otherwise never take an amjad, it's too expensive for crying out loud!





*Hiace or (Hayis)

Like a haf'la, it has a known point A to point B price. Apparently it has different stops than haf'las.









                                                                                           
          With Love.

Different does not always mean worse.

To you,
         
            I'm not sure about a lot of things, but one thing i'm sure of is that the world today is not the same as yesterday. Our generation is completely different from our parents'. We dress differently, we speak differently, and hence have different interest than what they had when they were our age.
But different does not always mean worse. 
What i'm trying to say is, although we cannot control all the events happening to the world around us, you can still control your behavior, and desire to improve yourself. I mean, why settle with what you got when you can be a better person?
Find a topic that interests you
-Read a book about it OR
-Watch a video OR
-Ask the experts
THEN practice what you have learned 
It does not matter how knowledge is obtained, what matters is that now you know!
                                                                           

                                                                                                                             With Love